i totally have no mood to blog today.
fer no reason, im feeling down.
infact, super duper down. ):
it all started during today's graduation day.
ii thot everything would be perfect.
go up the stage nicenice. and SMILEE.
happie dat im finally leaving the skool.
budden, everything went da opposite.
before proceeding up da stage.
our teachers gave their speech.
they were all so touching and sad norhs.
listening to other delications, i felt touched.
finally, it was missloke's turn.
ii thot she would be speaking in a joking tone.
but she was serious. and only serious.
i felt like crying. ii would miss her if i leave da skool.
miss her scoldings.miss her nagging.miss her voice.
im so going to miss her loads. ):
den went up the stage, bowed and went down.
i dunch wanna disappoint miss loke.
i wanna do well. i wanna get into a poly.
however, its too late. but still, i`ll try my best. (:
dats a promise to miss loke. i wanna see her SMILE.
she have been tolerating our nonsense all da while.
we gotta make all those worthwhile fer her.
speaking now with tears rolling down, i promise dat,
i will work hard. not just fer her. but fer myself.
i regretted and i hate myself.
she had reminded me a billion times to buckup,
stop working. and to strive hard fer da last lap.
if time could turn back. i would listen to her.
its too late now. im not going to slack anymore. ((:
when i got da graduation thingy de booklet,
my heart shattered. im really gonna miss 4E5.
dis year, we were so-so united lerhs,
unlike da young and immature us then.
well, den we went fer RECESS.
we used to eat.chat.play.laugh.TOGETHER
last time, we alwaes go out. and take pictures.
missed those gossiping and laughter. )):
think we are really stressed and busy nowadays.
we have our bfs. and leading different paths now.
i feel dat we arent so close like last time,
grabbing every opportunities to be together.
we are no longer US. we arent so happie lerh.
wad we face everyday now are, STRESS.
o's stress. relationship stress. everything.
it seemed like everything isnt going well fer us.
i dunch think i can hold on any longer.
i noe im going to break down soon. very soon.
rhea cried in skool today. she was stressed too.
when i saw her tears dropped. my heart paused.
i do not noe wad to do. just watched her cried.
and holding back mine ; feeling lost and confused.
it was really a bad day fer us. a real bad one.
and now, im chatting with dear on msn.
he doesnt seemed to care fer me. haiis.
sorry. i might have neglected eu these few days.
becos im really busy. and stressed.
altho i seemed to be chatting happily with eu,
i tell eu. im definitely not. i missed the past.
ii seriously seriously do, ALOT.
i missed those happy times. those periods.
i wanna talk to eu. i wanna hold your hand.
it seemed like im drifting further and further away.
not only from eu, but my bestie. and the world.
i wanna stop dis. i wanna return to da past.
i nd your shoulder to cry on. and eu to care fer me.
dunch leave me. - my besties and my dearest. <33
pleaseeeeeeee. dunch ever try.
eu guys are already a part of my life, my story.
since eu had already enter my world, dunch leave.
i dunch noe wads wrong with me today,
i got lots of things to say. i wanna make dis clear.
once and fer all. i wanna tell all of eu.
and fer someone, who used to be my bestie.
eu have changed. eu are no longer the same either.
eu used to quarrel with me. eu used to talk to me.
WE used to conference. and talked oftenly.
now, eu are still there. but no longer the same eu.
eu dunch tell me your problems. and eu dunch care.
we care fer eu. but eu take them fer granted.
i dunch understand eu anymore liao lerh.
always kpkb fer no reason. wads wrong with eu.
everyone ard eu care. but wad have eu done.
junjun, mrfoo, nelson and me. we all care.
eu flunked your EOYS, bigdeal.
eu are not the only one sad. we, too, are sad.
no matter how unreasonable eu are, we`ll be here.
eu can try again mahs. so fast give up fer wad.
i flunked my prelims. and i dunch care fer my o's.
now dat im trying to work harder lerh.
eu should too, correct? eu still got few years kays.
den fer junjun and didi. congrats ok.
eu both did well fer EOYS. gdgd. ((:
next time free den go help siiaokia narh~
and lastly fer buddy, eu oso jiayou okays.
now dat eu have decided to study hard, strive on.
we are going to pull all these through derh. ((:
thankkew eu guys fer entering my life.
* missloke. <33
* rheaBESTIE. <33
* CHESTERdarling. <33
* mrfooDIDI. <33
* NELSONbuddy. <33
* huahuaBESTIE. <33
* junjunBESTIE. <33
* nienieBAOBEI. <33
kayys. i shall stop here lerh.
gonna go studyyy. and no more MAPLING !
i think im mad. i missed skool. and everything.
fer once, i loved my skool. and da teachers. (:
off, GONES. <33